the much stuff that i am drowning in..

haha. so... 

first? prefects. f3 in charge of jamuan this year. (as always)..  the stress-ness. haha. being a perfectionist. u know laa. good thing we could figure out the games today. LOL. so fast? but yeah. thanks to all who helped to brain storm. what wiht all the thunder and lightning. XD nyahaha..

second? i still don't know about floorball lah. cuz like, it's tiring and like. sure. it'll be taking up time lah. sumore so far away. haiyaa. i don't know... T.T 

nexttt...st. john's.. helping out in the bridge marathon. yeah sureee. gotta go trainning all some more. aiks. and and suman is in the middle of exams now. so? the naib p. must do the work of finding people laa.. fortunately for me, i've got six people so far. thanks to the f4s. heheh. four more to go! *head hunts* woo..

fourthly? that school f3 concert laa. pengetua wants the music students to prepare,plan and oraganise a concert. like sheesh weii. for all the form threes to watch. aiyah. sure sounds like fun and all, but owh. yeah. i'm like, MC-ing and doing a song with jezzdin.. and they want some hasil by wednesday when school reopens. pfft. DIE larr..

fifth? bible camp. yes. THIS i want to be involved in. i mean like, PMR dah over kan? creativity. doing props and what nots. FUN. sure lah. doing stuff with all the brothers and sisters. who wouldn't love that weih? but. sure there's alot of work. and they haven't even told me anything yet. so blehh.. FASTER LET ME KNOW! harhar..

exercise. stupid. yeah yeah. sue me for all this exercise nonsense but ugh. seriously lah weih. i feel like a boig blog of fat. so super un-fit lah. macam babi. haa. i am one already. so i should feel like one eh? heh.. 

friends? we're like, must go out must go out! sleep overs. outings. yeah. but i'm getting bored of them lah. tomorrow's wan sumore. aishh.. seriously lah. not keen. but ah, just go lah. hopefully GOD'll bless us and make it fun? owh ahh... i want to be with specific people ne. others are like... okay.. but i am lazy watoodo? with the specific people pun malas. why? cuz gotta get ready, plan this lah plan that lah. nonsense betui lah. if i go out with the church gang, it'll be like, uber fun. and might even end with a game of captainball for the day? haha. oh i dunno.. but yeah..

GOD. ahhh.....!! i have not been putting time and effort into this relationship. of course. my bad. aihhhh. *sighs long*

i'm scared lah tomorrow.. what if radin leaves me? i'll be alone then. in the mall. ahhh! get it out of my head! lol hopefully i really pray and ask GOD to keep us safe lah. heh. why would you be readng this anyway? congrats if u could actually even get here. bah. who cares lah?

so yah. all my stuff. *points* ^  heh.i bet there's more to come lah. what with me having to start add maths soon. T.T  blehh..

i used to love being involved in anything and everything that i could possibly be involed in. but now? there's just too much lah. *yawns* i cryyyyyyyyyyy...

shut up zoe. i hate the pessimistic me. pfft.

sometimes i just wanna go: ZOE, you hot! don't let anybody ever bring you down on that!. but then, i look at myself and i go, heh zoe. u keep quiet lah. u'll never get to their level. u'll never be as pretty as them. so deal with it. and i'm like, so down. sure, my worth is not only outwards, but owh. skip it. :S

i am EMO. scared. SLEEPY. hah.