boo-yah!

haha. despite the title, yes, i am depressed. :)

with all i am - hillsong .  (currently listening to.)

haha. everytime i blog in this blog, i'd surely be listening to some song wan. HAHA

owh well..so yeah, as i was saying in the last post. him. i've realised. stuff made me realise that hey? it's not working out aye? i mean like, yeah, of course we're not together and stuff. but yeah, i show him that i care, but he doesnt do the same. no response is what i see. 

why?? it's always ME who catches up after him. it's always ME who runs after him. it's always ME who waits for him. I make the moves. I do stuff for him. he doesn't. sadly. so heh.  ii'm giving up. yeah. really. unless something unexpected happens or what. (not that i think anything would)..

so yeah. he's been walking with her lately. alot. he doesn't even bother to like, say hi or do stuff with me. HEH. whatever lah. imma be second best now. yeah,  should've known this was coming all along. i can't do anything right? i have no rights to claim him. so it's his choice right? right. he wants to walk with her? sure, go. he wants to do stuff and spend time with her? sure, go. i didn't and won't say anything to him about this. letting him go. it's hard. very. but i'm trying, okay? i've gotten myself too deep into this. and now, i face the consequences. 

not the best feeling. but hey? i have to go through it some time right? so, the sooner the better aye? mm...

ahh, it's rainning now. that means no captianball. sad. haih. ulcers. i have them. uber painful. owh yeah, ystd was an awesome day. played captainball and floorball in cf. went to tania's house with eulene. had loadsa fun. i guess it helped take my mind of him? haha. yeah. it did alright. suree. we really had SERIOUS fun. disturbing tania and hogging her computer not to mention RUINNING HER HOUSE. HAHA. thanks tans! was great. lol.  thnx aunty and uncle! :)  floorball! whoo! didnt exactly enjoy it fully coz of the huge blister under my foot. and the sprained ankle. -.- j-ASO-n!! thank youu. *does the eyebrow thingy*  haha. CHRIS. lol.  :D  puh-lease lah. haha

ah yes, here i am, crapping. meluahkan isi hati saya. pssht. if only somebody read this and understood me. *shrugs* owh well..

today? spent the whole mourning morning with pei. ppk-ed st john. xD hehehe..(for pei? whatt?)  yeah. we discussed stuff. about someone. aiyaa. 

neways, longgg post. deep stuff. MY stuff. stuff that's been bugging me alot. heh.

yes, he is HAWT and macho. :D  remember, i go for GAY guys. xD  hahaha..