straight to the top. go away.

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lol. i love you people. xD

ahh. to the guy that held my hand.  that held my waist. that said he loved me. that hugged me. that listened to me play the piano. that made me so happy.

yeah. you. 

the memories. ah, so sweet. if only.. we were something now. that you would actually be that guy, to hold me and pick me up when i'm down. to reassure me that i'm loved. heh.

yeah. could've been you. so you.  i really don't know why you treat me this way. what happened to all the lovey dovey stuff? i mean.. we were like, one momment we would never let go. and the next, you're so cold to me. i didn't love you at first. but talking to you made me love you. and then you throw me with that. grr.

WHY?  at least if you let me know why, it would've made things abit easier. now i'm afraid of looking like a pathetic perosn in front of you. what i do isn't good enough, is it?

i just seriously hope that, somehow.. things will get better between us. in some way or other. you changed so fast. just like that. that hurt the most. when i had you or i thought i did, i didn't make full use of my time with you. i was naive and still new. i didn't trust you enough yet. not letting you do that to me. you got upset. was it just because of that?

if it was.. people tell me. there's no need to wait for guys like that. coz it's their loss that they can't wait. and your gain. but i somehow ahh. just miss your touch. as a girl, yeah. wanting to be loved. obviously i felt and feel that now. i wanna let it out. to someone. i wish you knew how frustrated i was. it was before pmr. i kept wondering what it was that i did wrong to you. 

and in church that day, seeing that guy exactly like you. it hurt everytime i looked at him. cuz he reminded me of you. his actions, his boday, his hair. crap. that was too much.

i miss you yean. i really do. i can't wait till 20. it's too long. 

baby come back..