haha. don't read. i command you not to. now. grr.
i was so happy yesterday hugging poeple and wishing them goodbye and stuff. i just realised. ah, nevermind. i will sound so pathetic but who cares, right? they have their own gang, and like, he and her. ENOUGH about him and her. sheesh. i just realised, that i actually made this blog bcoz i started getting so emo. why? because of HIM. like whatt? all becoz of a dude i go and get this emo blog. and 99% of my emo posts are about him. this sucks weih. seriously. ah, hilary's blog songs. make me go emo.
yeah, i read her blog. they had so much fun. i got left out. pssht. owh nevermind. i shall TRY to pretend like nothing happened. haha. it's not thier fault anyway right? that i don't really get along with the form 3 people of my year.
i can't blame them. i wouldnt really be my own friend either. cuz i'm like. PATHETICALLY LAME. seriously. so don't ask. i just wanna cry out loud. but i can't. tears are just bottled up. i don't know. ugh. i make people feel so irritated. whyy?!?? i hate it.
yeah yeah sure. you'd just probably go, so, don't be like that. go to God. he'll make it better. blablabla. sure. it's easy to say and stuff. i just want to stop all this. just really stop. just STOP. and go away for some time. i wish i could be that jovial person that everybody would love to be around. that sweet one who will make you feel better no matter what. the caring and understanding one who will be there to listen to your cries and fears.
but no. i can't. i can't even handle my stuff. i can't even have a good relationship with people my own age. what do you call that? and i supposedly give advice to others. helping them with their problems. when i have tonnes of my own. and i can't even solve them. hypocrite, no?
stupiddd. i get so mad at myself sometimes. alot of times actually. shut up zoe.
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